Giving Thanks Always

3D402826-7711-4730-AB68-E48835DF8198Many years ago I lay on my couch grieving with my 5 year old daughter playing on the floor beneath me. My heart was crying out to God, “Why did my baby have to die?” I was hurting with pain and grief like I had never felt before. I was recovering from a miscarriage. I will never forget how that special little girl, that was on the floor beneath me, was used by God to bring comfort to her mother’s heart. One would think that she could not have known the pain that was in my heart but yet she did. She drew pictures, colored them and wrote across all of them, I love you Mommy. She would give me one picture with excitement and then another, looking up at me as she handed them to me, I am sure to see the expression on my face. Over and over I read the words, I love you Mommy.
Years later I was sitting in a wheelchair in a hospital and this same daughter placed her new born baby daughter in my arms. She was born in January of 2004, and I was hospitalized 3 weeks later, on February 16, 2004. One week later I was not expected to live. With God’s grace and mercy I survived and remained in the hospital and rehabilitation for almost 3 months. My daughter’s baby lying in my arms was a gift from God. They had to help me hold her but there she was in my arms. On that day I received love, strength and hope just from seeing and holding that small baby, my grand-daughter. I praise God for the love and joy she has brought to my life.
Readings in Psalms recently….How majestic is thy name oh Lord…. Glory to Him

I Thank You Lord

This is a poem of praise I wrote several years after the event that left me in a mind and body I did not know.  I knew if I did not do everything I could on each day I had been given, I was dishonoring God for giving me that day.  So this is not a recent event I am writing about, but I just decided to share it publicly.  My journey to this point has been long, and it was accomplished only with His help.

 

i thnak you Lord

Have A Plan

The day is here
Waste not the time
You’ve been given

Make your plans
And start your day
Accomplish whatever you can

Doesn’t have to be great
Or impressive to anyone
As long as you have won

Won that battle of sitting
Or lying and not moving
Feeling like you can’t

No matter how hard
It is to do ,rewards are there
Waiting for you

Feeling and knowing
That you have accomplished                                                                                                           God’s plan for you this day

Gay Nell Olive

One Day I Will Be Back

One Day I Will Be Back

How can it be, I do not know,
That friends seem so far away.
Deeper and deeper in thought I’m going.
Will I get lost and not come back?

How did I get here, when did it happen?
People all around me, there used to be.
But now I sit here waiting and wondering,
How did it all happen?

Get up ,get out, and move about.
Before I get lost. Use your mind.
Keep moving and working,
One day I will be back.

Gay Nell Olive

APHASIA

Aphasia may be mild or severe. The person may have trouble finding the right word or understanding complex conversations. Global aphasia, limits the person’s ability to communicate. The person does not participate in or understand. This is a great concern of mine from the position of the nurse and the patient. So many people are limited in this area of understanding the spoken word, recalling the words to say or saying the word they really want to say. They often become socially isolated. It does not always mean they can not. They just need more time. They need social interaction with people to talk to that has time to help understand what they want to say. I write this because I worked with the stroke patient and then I was the patient. I know how hard it was to communicate and still is if it is about a topic I haven’t discussed or words that I haven’t readily spoken.  Being in a large crowd without a close friend or family member was the hardest first step.         Gay Nell Olive http://www.strokeassociation.org/STROKEORG/LifeAfterStroke/RegainingIndependence/CommunicationChallenges/Types-of-Aphasia_UCM_310096_Article.jsp

IF YOU HAVE TIME

If you have the time,
Slow down,your talking so fast.
I can not understand.
Can you repeat, just say it again.
My word processor works,
But it is slower now.
Repeat and tell me again.
I want to understand.
I would like to talk,
If you have time.
You will have to help me
Find the right words,
To tell you what I want to say.
It will feel so good to me,
If you have the time.

Gay Nell Olive