For the Lord is good; His mercy is everlasting; and His truth endureth to all generations. Psalms 100:5(KJV)
About four and one-half years after my miscarriage, God gave us a son. Complications I had with all my pregnancies could have resulted in miscarriages each time, I would find out years later. I am so thankful for our two children and grand children. When Alan was almost 16, I asked him if he wanted to volunteer at the hospital where I worked. I thought he might be interested and it would occupy his summertime break. He answered my question with “yes”. At the time he immediately thought, “Who just said that? I can’t believe I said yes.” That was not how he thought he would spend his summer. I worked the day shift at the hospital and Alan would just be riding with me to the hospital.
The very first morning that he volunteered is a morning that both of us will never forget. We know why God had him in the car with me that morning.
Alan related the events of the morning to me . We were riding down the Interstate when I suddenly began going too fast. I almost ran into the back of cars, and big transfer trucks. He didn’t know what was happening, but knew he didn’t want to die. He quickly decided he had no choice but to scream at me to try and get my attention. He was trying to tell what to do. I know that had to be hard for him but he knew he had no choice. He wondered if there would be consequences for his behavior, but we would be alive. He said he had to tell me to slow down, then to speed up. He tried to help steer the wheel. He said he was so scared and just knew that we were going to die. He had to keep the car on the interstate from the passenger seat to keep us from going off an embankment. Several times he tried to get me to pull over on the side of the road, but I would not. Finally, we got to our exit where he directed me off and I went up a small embankment but did not wreck. It did get the car stopped. Alan was able to help me over into the passenger seat and he drove us the rest of the way to the hospital. Alan doesn’t hesitate telling anyone that he knows God had him in the car with me that day to protect and take care of his mother. He will also tell you that he knows now when he answered my question, if he wanted to volunteer, who it was answering for him. I know he was volunteering that summer for one reason and maybe more. I know God protected both of us that morning.
Indeed, everything is for your benefit so that, as grace extends through more and more people, it may cause thanksgiving to increase to the glory of God.
2 Corinthians 4:15 (CSB)
Many years ago I lay on my couch grieving with my 5 year old daughter playing on the floor beneath me. My heart was crying out to God, “Why did my baby have to die?” I was hurting with pain and grief like I had never felt before. I was recovering from a miscarriage. I will never forget how that special little girl, that was on the floor beneath me, was used by God to bring comfort to her mother’s heart. One would think that she could not have known the pain that was in my heart but yet she did. She drew pictures, colored them and wrote across all of them, I love you Mommy. She would give me one picture with excitement and then another, looking up at me as she handed them to me, I am sure to see the expression on my face. Over and over I read the words, I love you Mommy.
Years later I was sitting in a wheelchair in a hospital and this same daughter placed her new born baby daughter in my arms. She was born in January of 2004, and I was hospitalized 3 weeks later, on February 16, 2004. One week later I was not expected to live. With God’s grace and mercy I survived and remained in the hospital and rehabilitation for almost 3 months. My daughter’s baby lying in my arms was a gift from God. They had to help me hold her but there she was in my arms. On that day I received love, strength and hope just from seeing and holding that small baby, my grand-daughter. I praise God for the love and joy she has brought to my life.
Readings in Psalms recently….How majestic is thy name oh Lord…. Glory to Him
Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty
Psalms 91:1 (NIV)
While walking in my yard yesterday and I noticed an amaryllis bulb that had grown and produced a strong stem with a richly colored bud.
I knew it was getting ready to open into a beautiful amaryllis flower. This is the first year for one stem to grow by itself. There are many more bulbs at the same spot that have not grown yet. I was fascinated by this one amaryllis fulfilling its purpose, all alone, yet strong and beautiful. Hence the poem below:
Man born of woman
is short of days and full of trouble.
2 He blossoms like a flower, then withers;
he flees like a shadow and does not last.
My first post of the new year. How wonderful to start a new year on this blog. Thank you to all my followers and supporters.
As we sail through life.
The waves may be rough and high.
If Jesus is our captain,
Peace will abide.
Just to know you are not alone. Just to know someone understands. Someone hears, someone knows. Gives a peace that came from above. That was sent just for you. Hold on to it, it was a gift. Others understand and care. You are not alone.
Feeling prayers everywhere. Knowing God is with you. Brings peace and comfort. That nothing else can do.