It occurred to me that I never shared why I chose the name of my blog to be Renewing of Mind and Body. At the time I began the process of starting the blog, I was still lost in my mind and body. In some ways I still may be. I had attended a few writer’s conferences and listened carefully as others talked about having blogs. I thought to myself, I could never do that. I continued to listen and a strong desire to share God’s grace and love in this way grew and grew. I presented the beginning of a book I was writing to publishers at these conferences about the miracle of my survival and continued undeserved grace given to me by God through many situations. They all agreed that it was an amazing story. Also, they agreed they were unable to publish it because I was not a celebrity. I could not guarantee a large number of sales of the book. I understood what they were saying. I did not like it, but I understood it.
I had been typing one finger at a time to write my story. Unable to organize or make outlines, I just typed the story. When I first started, I had great problems with word recall but writing was easier than talking. Word check on the lap top is fantastic. I really did not know what I was doing or how to accomplish writing skills I just knew my desire was to share my story of God’s mercy and grace.and it. I sat with my lap top searching, reading and my blog was created. I knew that it was not Gay Nell Olive creating the blog. The name Renewing of Mind and Body originated because I knew without a doubt God was renewing my mind and my body.
As a young person, I was in a speaker’s tournament and I gave a speech on the verse in Romans 12:2, Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to discern what is the good, pleasing, and perfect will of God. I knew God had been with me through my whole life. I had to relearn so much after my strokes. I didn’t even know where passages of scripture were found in the Bible. I was in a body I didn’t know with a mind I didn’t know. The one thing I knew was I was still alive. That meant there was still a purpose for my life. So I just started with eagerness and excitement to try and create a blog. The name to me was evident, RenewingofMindandBody. With God’s help and the Happy Engineers at WordPress answering so many questions, the blog was started.
I thank each of you with much sincerity who have supported me and liked my post. I have had many obstacles, that have made it really difficult at times to continue the blog. But one learns that is what life is all about. We all have trials, difficulties, pain health issues and grief. Knowing that we can rest in the assurance that all things will work out for the best,according to Christ will, is our peace and strength for each day. I know I fail each day to do my best but I have to keep trying. The wonderful thing is, I know with Jesus help, I can and will keep doing all that I can. If I do not, I am dishonoring Him and the day He has given me. This is my first extensive writing attempt to share about myself on the blog.
This is a poem of praise I wrote several years after the event that left me in a mind and body I did not know. I knew if I did not do everything I could on each day I had been given, I was dishonoring God for giving me that day. So this is not a recent event I am writing about, but I just decided to share it publicly. My journey to this point has been long, and it was accomplished only with His help.
I was reading and confused. My mind was overloaded and I was trying to learn to organize, categorize and develop a more pleasant appearance to my blog. Help popped up on the screen. I was confused about this at first, but I soon realized, I really could get help. Where did you come from??? I did ask ,”Who are You?” More thankful am I, than words can express. With repeated directions and explanations now I sit with mental fatigue, knowing I did my best and so thankful for my internet helpers.
My photography mishap, that I turned into a game received the most views. I am sharing it again. The Red Fox Squirrel. Thank you for all your support, likes and comments these past few months. I have enjoyed reading your post and seeing your beautiful photography. You all are so kind to accept me into this world of technology, I know so little about.
CAN YOU FIND HIM? HE IS THERE!
Two weeks, no post, that’s a long time. Doctor’s visits, an over night hospital visit for test disrupted any plans I might have had. Suddenly, I realized I needed a plan when I was going to post to the blog. A plan so that anyone following me would know when to expect a post from me. I’ve learned this by following other’s blogs. I know when they are going to post, and that is really nice. So I have decided, I will have a post the first of each week. If there is something I can’t wait to share, I might post it earlier but I will still have a post the first of each week.
(First shared July 6)
ALL THAT YOU NEED
If words could heal.
And bring you comfort.
I would fill the page full.
I would write to there was no end.
To ease the pain.
I know you are in.
Prayers so many are being prayed.
For you just now.
We all hurt, we all care.
Look up to God above.
Your heart and mind He does love.
Peace and comfort He can give.
Tell Him all about how you feel.
He cares so much for you.
Your pain and hurt will still be there.
But easier you will find.
To carry the burden and the load.
That your heart feels.
Let go, look up and take His hand.
Let Him walk beside you.
Or carry you if you need Him to.
Just call Him by His name.
You will know that you are in His care.
And that is all that you need.
Gay Nell Olive
Weeks later I am still trying to organize the blog to make it flow easily and but I am not sure that I am accomplishing that. I would like to see it organized as I see some other blogs but I have learned to accept and be happy with what I have done. I hope that you can find my older post if you are visiting for the first time if that is what you desire to do. I will keep posting and trying new ways . Thank each one of you that have liked, followed, commented and supported me.
About 6 weeks ago I started the blog. I’ve changed, rearranged,added to, and taken away. Reading and comparing other’s blogs has helped me along with WordPress instructions. Being able to accomplish this is totally awesome and amazing. I had no idea what I was doing or how to do it. I just started and took it one step at a time. That’s why so many changes were made. I have problems with organizing so I’m still working on this category and post aspect. I function my days by routine steps. If a step is left out, I get confused. So I have to do this on the same basis. It’s time confusing and tiring but my rewards have been great. I hope that someone will find my blog rewarding and encouraging to them also. I am thankful to each one of you that have liked, commented and followed my blog. Your encouragement is appreciated very much. Gay Nell Olive
Listening to what you type and auto correct are fantastic tools. Maybe time consuming but still fantastic. Going back and listening to what I type, I find so many words that were not the word I intended for it to be. In the spoken word we can not do do that. Once it comes out, it is out.
I thank another blogger who directed me to an article by Johns Hopkins Hospital that I have attached below if anyone is interested. The study may help with rehabilitation of aphasia.
Two and one half years ago I was encouraged by my occupational therapist to take books and read them out loud instead of silently to gain confidence in speaking and communicating in conversations with other people. This was a great help and I mention it if anyone is reading that might need this or know someone that does.
Gay Nell Olive
How can it be, I have a new me.
Lost in a mind I did not know,
With a body I did not recognize.
The road seemed long,
Full of bumps and curves.
Questions of what, how and when?
My heart, brain and body rearranged.
Hard it was to keep on moving.
Challenges kept changing my direction.
Memory and words were strangers.
Fatigue was my best friend.
A source of strength took over for me.
Filled me with the spirit of life, the will to be alive.
Accepting was the hardest part.
Accepting I have a new me.
Gay Nell Olive
One Day I Will Be Back
How can it be, I do not know,
That friends seem so far away.
Deeper and deeper in thought I’m going.
Will I get lost and not come back?
How did I get here, when did it happen?
People all around me, there used to be.
But now I sit here waiting and wondering,
How did it all happen?
Get up ,get out, and move about.
Before I get lost. Use your mind.
Keep moving and working,
One day I will be back.
Gay Nell Olive
The birds are singing, squirrels scurrying.
The sun is shining, and roses blooming.
I see the Lord every where.
Life is a gift, a gift from above.
It doesn’t have to come.
Be full of praise and joy.
Thankful we should always be.
We are alive,surrender all.
Giving glory to God always.
Trials and hardships may come our way.
But strength and joy can remain.
Coming only from above.
To Him our cares we can take.
Each prayer we say He hears.
Rejoicing fills our days.
Give it up, all to Him.
And our heart’s ease we will find.
Delighting Ourselves In The Lord.
Gay Nell Olive
Aphasia may be mild or severe. The person may have trouble finding the right word or understanding complex conversations. Global aphasia, limits the person’s ability to communicate. The person does not participate in or understand. This is a great concern of mine from the position of the nurse and the patient. So many people are limited in this area of understanding the spoken word, recalling the words to say or saying the word they really want to say. They often become socially isolated. It does not always mean they can not. They just need more time. They need social interaction with people to talk to that has time to help understand what they want to say. I write this because I worked with the stroke patient and then I was the patient. I know how hard it was to communicate and still is if it is about a topic I haven’t discussed or words that I haven’t readily spoken. Being in a large crowd without a close friend or family member was the hardest first step. Gay Nell Olive http://www.strokeassociation.org/STROKEORG/LifeAfterStroke/RegainingIndependence/CommunicationChallenges/Types-of-Aphasia_UCM_310096_Article.jsp
If you have the time,
Slow down,your talking so fast.
I can not understand.
Can you repeat, just say it again.
My word processor works,
But it is slower now.
Repeat and tell me again.
I want to understand.
I would like to talk,
If you have time.
You will have to help me
Find the right words,
To tell you what I want to say.
It will feel so good to me,
If you have the time.
Gay Nell Olive
I have to admit, blogging or should I say creating the site has been very time consuming for me. WordPress gives excellent instructions and help guides but my understanding of some terminology is lacking. However, if any one started following me at the beginning you have been able to see changes being made. As I continue with this you probably will see more changes as I hope I learn more about how to use everything that is available. Gay Nell Olive Colossians 3:23 | NIV 23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,
“Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” Ephesians 4:20NIV
Wow! Do you really believe that? Do you know that you can accomplish anything that God wants you to. I know that I believe it. I also know that our big obstacle for accomplishment is fear. Fear that we will not do it the right way,that others will not like it, or that we will just simply fail with what we start. For some of us it is just getting up in the morning that is hard or having a smile on our face. While many others have therapy or exercises to do and my dear precious friends who are facing radiation and chemotherapy. So how do we overcome this fear? What do we do with it?
In 1 Peter 5:7 NIV, we are told to cast our anxiety on God because He cares for us.
So we give that fear to God and that means letting Him have all of it.
And then in Isaiah we read how God will strengthen us and uphold us. We are not to be afraid.Isaiah 41:10 NIV
So do not fear, for I am with you;do not be dismayed, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
He is our God. Do not be afraid or dismayed. He will strengthen us. He helps and upholds us.
This is what our minds and hearts need to be refreshed and filled with every day.
Gay Nell Olive
My mind and body have been renewed.
With adversity came knowledge, then insight.
With my eyes on Jesus, my race I ran.
I was never alone.
Gay Nell Olive